Do you ever feel overwhelmed?
I have some days that I do.
You know those days where you feel so tired, so slow,
sad, mad and you do not even know why?
When I talk to David about what I feel sometimes he tells me that is obvious
that I feel tired, I have the hardest job after all being at home taking care of everything and our 4 kids. I often feel like Superwoman but today I don't.
Today I feel tired, still sore after the half marathon, slow to get my house and laundry clean and I miss my mom.
It is so hard to to be part of two worlds. I often miss my country and the life I had there,I can close my eyes and imagine that I am walking on the streets that I grew up, eating the yummy food,
I can taste the cold guarana and I can see my house and my mom and dad.
Only if I could feel their hug...
The hardest thing is that when I am here in the USA I am happy,I have my wonderful family,I live in one of the best places in the earth, I have the best friends but I totally MISS Brazil
and when I am there and I can enjoy all of the things that I was talking about it I miss being here.
Can you really L.O.V.E. two worlds?
(I call world because of the difference between them)
I am the living proof of that.
When I live here I miss there and when I am there...I miss here!
Today I went to David's office at 2:30 and asked him if he wanted
to go to FIJI with me
(remember at the movie "My Big Fat Greek Wedding, when the girl feels so bad because her dad hates the idea that she is marrying a guy who is not Greek? She wants to run away from everything and she goes to his job and invites him to run to Fiji?
David answer was NO.
He said he would go anywhere with me but he didn't not want to visit Fiji.
Well, after being rejected I came home and made some really yummy "Gratined Potatoes" from my friend Michela's recipe that I wanted to try it for a log time.
By the time I went to bed I had forgotten all about Fiji
but not about Brazil.
Here is the potatoes dish, I used fresh Parmesan cheese Michela :)
Here is the potatoes dish, I used fresh Parmesan cheese Michela :)
1 comment:
Milena gostei muito deste post.
É super normal que vc se sinta assim às vezes, afinal vc está muito longe do seu país e da sua cultura, mas podemos sim amar "dois mundos", nosso lar é onde nossa família está!
Eu estou super nervosa e ansiosa com minha mudança mas sei que com o tempo eu vou me acostumar, sei que muitas vezes vou me sentir sozinha e com saudades de tudo e de todos, mas o Pai Celestial vai me ajudar a continuar e prover meios para que eu veja sempre minha família.
Vc é o maior exemplo para mim, é uma super mãe, super esposa, super amiga, super mulher, mas ninguém é de ferro neh? e sempre vamos ter momentos assim na nossa vida... eu ainda não passei por isso mas estou perto...
Se cuida, bjos da sua amiga Khennya
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